bittersweet

today i was sick so i couldnt make it out to camp. i felt pretty guilty because i couldnt do what i came here to do simply because i was a bit under the weather. so today all i did was sit on my ass pretty much and take momentary naps.

while i was awake, i thought about my time here, and how it is coming to a close. i am very glad that i am here, and am thankful for everything i learned.

i think being here and living with 14 other people makes it difficult for me to have some alone time, which i really value. and i think today was that day for me. i am so glad to have met everyone in our team because i feel that we all play an essential part in this team dynamic.

i am trying to consolidate all my thoughts regarding this trip into one picture and i realized that it is impossible to do so. if there is one word i could use to describe this experience it would be bittersweet. i am unable to gather all my thoughts into one big theme because there is too much that happened in this month. all the happy moments, the sad moments, the heroic moments, the dramatic moments. i think what is best is to not think of this trip in the span of a moment, but to respect it for its volume of knowledge both taught and received.

i can't wait to get back home and continue on with my life and see what i can change based on my experience here, but at the same time, i am sad to leave such a beautiful, yet unreached, country.